A tunnel to freedom

Gothic Revival Silver Spoon

The spoon

Some days I think I need nothing
more in life than a spoon.
With a spoon I can eat oatmeal
Or take the medicine doctors prescribe
I can swat a fly sleeping on the sill
or pound the table to get attention.
I can point accusingly at God
or stab the empty air repeatedly.
Looking into the spoon’s mirror,
I can study my face in its shiny bowl,
or cover one eye to make half the world
disappear. With a spoon
I can dig a tunnel to freedom
spoonful by spoonful of dirt,
or waste life catching moonlight
and flinging it into the blackest night.

-- Richard Jones

Your spiritual profile

Artist: Sophie Gengembre Anderson

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Which of the following describes your approach to faith or your faith personality most accurately?

believer
lover
seeker
maverick
companion
thinker

I just rediscovered a website I first found several years entitled Explore Faith. You can answer a ten question survey to indicate your "type" according to the choices above. I turned out "seeker" . I'm not sure that really describes me but it's obvious that's how I answered the questions today!

While you're there, you might enjoy exploring the site. Lots of good stuff there!

I think we need some Bach today!

From Cantata BWV 147:

Soprano: Christine Schäfer

English translation:

Make ready, O Jesus, to thee now the way;
My Savior, elect now
My soul ever faithful
And look down with eyes full of grace now on me!

Something I just remembered

Christian Science symbol

Quite a few years ago (pre-convent days) I lived next door to some dear people who were Christian Scientists. We became close friends and, in the process, I learned quite a bit about Christian Science. No, I'm not about to suggest that we give up going to doctors but I do want to say without reservation that there is much to be admired in Christian Science spirituality. This morning I happened to remember the opening sentence from their text book, Science and Health:

To those leaning on the Sustaining Infinite, today is big with blessings.

I love that. "The Sustaining Infinite" is both a deeply personal and also non-anthropomorphic name for God.

Here's something else I've always considered to be beautiful:

Divine Love always has met and always will meet every human need.

What orthodox Christian can argue with that? You often see those words painted on the front wall of Christian Science churches.

Finally I want to share with you something that prompted in me both reflection and sorrow when I first read it back in the 80s:

If all who ever partook of the sacrament had really commemorated the sufferings of Jesus and drunk of his cup, they would have revolutionaized the world.

I commend the above quotations to us all for reflection and contemplation today. They are all by Mary Baker Eddy.

By the way, the Christian Science Mother Church is in Boston and if you're ever there, please go by for a tour. It has a truly amazing organ - world class. And the building itself is lovely and also fascinating.

Kataphatic prayer

Artist: Francisco Zurbaran

Image from Wikimedia Commons

Our friend, Monk-in-Training, reminded me this morning that today is the Feast of St. Ignatius of Loyola. Ignatius, of course, is historically, one of the most well known proponents of kataphatic spirituality - that is, using images in prayer. Here's somethinge brief about that from Inner Compass: An Invitation to Ignatian Spirituality by Margaret Silf:

He began to find himself, in imagination, present in the scenes, conversations, and stories of the Gospels, and he began to participate in the plots of these stories. It was the start, for him, of an adventure into imaginative prayer that was to become a most powerful catalyst for the growth of his personal relationship with God..

Sadly, I've heard some praying people assert that apophatic prayer (without images) is somehow "better" or more authentic than kataphatic prayer. I don't think such an assessment is at all justifiable. The kind of prayer that a person finds accessible is largely a matter of temperament and personality. If our prayer brings us to surrender to God, then it's "good" prayer. If it doesn't, then something needs to be re-examined.

The color of grace

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Spiritual rigidity makes it very difficult for us to be open enough to notice divine surprises like this:

Lord, you are like a wildflower. You spring up in places where we least expect you. The bright color of your grace dazzles us. Far from trying to possess you, may you possess us.

— Henry Suso

Absolute mystery

Artist: William Turner

Image from Wikimedia Commons

This is the reason it is truly best not to judge other people for their belief system:

I must confess to you in all honesty that for me God is and has always been absolute mystery. I do not understand what God is; no one can. We have intimations, inklings; we make faltering, inadequate attempts to put mystery into words. But there is no word for it, no sentence for it.

— Karl Rahner

Little things

Artist: Jacques-Louis David

Image from Wikimedia Commons

Sojourners sent the following quotation out in an email today and I think it goes well with yesterday's posting:

Every spiritual master in every tradition talks about the significance of small things in a complex world. Small actions in social life, small efforts in the spiritual life, small moments in the personal life. All of them become great in the long run, the mystics say, but all of them look like little or nothing in themselves.

- Joan Chittister

We are very easily seduced, aren't we, by the world's understanding of significance. It is wise not to devalue seemingly "little" things. We don't know. We really don't know. Let us, rather, assume that our judgment of what is small or great may very well be distorted.

Scaling the mountain within

Artist: Bunchō Tani

Image from Wikimedia Commons

I was very influenced by Elizabeth O'Connor during the period in which I was attempting to discern whether or not to enter the religious life. Here's something quite wonderful that she said:

Every single one of us has a good work to do in life. This good work not only accomplishes something needed in the world, but completes something in us. When it is finished, a new work emerges that will help make green a desert place as well as scale another mountain inside ourselves.

I don't think by "good work to do in life" she means anything particularly grand as the world would evaluate such work. It can be very hidden indeed or really quite simple. Nevertheless, that good work is something that is truly needed and something that helps us grow interiorly as well.

Information versus knowledge

"Jesus multiplies the loaves and fish"
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This morning's gospel reading is, of course, about the feeding of the five thousand. Here's part of a sermon by The Rev. Kate Huey that explores some of its implications:

The disciples of Jesus were overwhelmed by the need before them. If they didn't feel a responsibility to meet that need, Jesus certainly raised their consciousness. They tried to assess the situation, measure their resources, and figure out a solution, but they seemed to feel powerless in the face of so many hungry people. Cheryl Bridges Johns draws a contrast between the power of God that was about to burst forth and the power that we think we have today: the power of knowledge. However, the better word she uses for today's knowledge is "information," and perhaps information disempowers us by discouraging us with the "objective reality" of what lies before us, the statistics and hard cold facts (is it any wonder they're called hard and cold?).

On the other hand, John's Gospel is "all about knowledge as power," not the knowledge-as-information that inundates us but "love's knowledge" which "multiplies the meager resources and makes a way forward when knowledge comes to its end….in the hands of Jesus, little can become much, the few can become the many, and the weak can become strong." Imagine, Johns suggests, God responding to our prayers for the world's needs with the question, "What do you have?"

I found Johns' commentary quite thought-provoking, because I often feel overwhelmed by the magnitude of problems and need of the world. And yet, what would happen if we trusted in the power of God to multiply in amazing ways the resources we have, and what would happen if we saw this as a communal question, not simply a personal one? What if we looked around and saw the extravagant generosity with which God has provided an abundance for us all, and marveled at this great wonder? Would we be moved to be part of a dazzling work of God to re-create our shared life in justice and compassion?

I am intrigued by the distinction made here between knowledge and information and the idea that mere information can, in fact, be disempowering. I'm also very, very moved by the question "What do you have?" in this context.

Aids to contemplation

Artist: D. Kristen Herrington

There's a whole series of marvelous mandalas by this artist over on Beliefnet this morning. I recommend that you go take a look and browse through them all!

Blue true dream

Artist: Konrad Mägi

Image from Wikimedia Commons

Here is a little jewel of a poem:

Yes

I thank God for most this
amazing
day; for the leaping greenly
spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;
and for everything
which is natural, which is
infinite, which is yes.

-- e. e. cummings

True comprehension

"Abraham and Sara"

Artist: Marc Chagall

This is very encouarging to me right now:

Discipleship is not limited to what you can understand - it must transcend all comprehension. Plunge into the deep waters beyond your own understanding…. Bewilderment is the true comprehension. Not to know where you are going is the true knowledge. In this way Abraham went forth from his father, not knowing where he was going.

-- Martin Luther

"Bewilderment is the true comprehension." What a powerful paradox. For it is the key, I'm sure of it, to letting go.

The mystical experience

Detail: The Mystical Nativity
Artist: Sandro Botticelli
Image from Wikimedia Commons

I think what happens to many of us is that we have our natural mysticism knocked out of us at an early age. And this is very sad:

Every one of us is a mystic. We may or may not realize it, we may not even like it. But whether we know it or not, whether we accept it or not, mystical experience is always there, inviting us on a journey of ultimate discovery. We have been given the gift of life in this perplexing world to become who we ultimately are: creatures of boundless love, caring compassion, and wisdom. Existence is a summons to the eternal journey of the sage - the sage we all are, if only we could see.

-- Brother Wayne Teasdale

Saint Mary of Magdala

Artist: Andrea del Sarto
Image from Wikimedia Commons

So many traditional paintings of Mary Magdalene depict her as a penitent but biblical scholars assure us that there is no scriptual justification for identifying her with the unnamed prostitute in the gospels. And so today I bring you an image of her as the first witness to the ressurection. This even led to her being called "the apostle to the apostles".

Here is a poem by by Rainer Maria Rilke (translation: Ann Conrad Lammers) about the scene depicted above:

The Risen One

Until his final hour he had never

refused her anything or turned away,

lest she should turn their love to public praise.

Now she sank down beside the cross, disguised,

heavy with the largest stones of love

like jewels in the cover of her pain.

But later, when she came back to his grave

with tearful face, intending to anoint,

she found him resurrected for her sake,

saying with greater blessedness, "Do not--"

She understood it in her hollow first:

how with finality he now forbade

her, strengthened by his death, the oils' relief

or any intimation of a touch:

because he wished to make of her the lover

who needs no more to lean on her beloved,

as, swept away by joy in such enormous

storms, she mounts even beyond his

voice.

Contemplation and justice

"The blessed Ranieri frees the poor from a Florentine jail"

Artist: Sassetta

Image from Wikimedia Commons

So many people sadly believe that contemplation means shutting the world out. Actually, it is only through authentic contemplation that we can engage the world as it is:

To live a contemplative life, to be spiritual, does not mean that we spend life in some kind of sacred spa designed to save us from having to deal with the down and dirty parts of life. The contemplative life is not spiritual escapism. Contemplation is immersion in the God who created the world for all of us…. And so must we do whatever justice must be done in our time if we claim to be serious about really sinking into the heart of God.

-- Joan Chittister

Come away to a deserted place

Artist: Francis Cadell

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Here's the bit in this morning's gospel reading that really caught my attention today:

The apostles gathered around Jesus, and told him all that they had done and taught. He said to them, "Come away to a deserted place all by yourselves and rest a while." For many were coming and going, and they had no leisure even to eat. And they went away in the boat to a deserted place by themselves.

And now I want to share with you a short passage from a sermon by The Rev. Dr. Ozzie E. Smith, Jr.:

Howard Thurman in a message entitled The Genuine in You, said, and I paraphrase, failing to listen to the sound of the genuine in ourselves is to render ourselves always on the ends of strings being pulled by someone else. Taking time to be still and know refreshes us to remember both who and whose we are. As Jesus says in this text, "Come, let's go to a deserted place all by ourselves and rest awhile." This, I believe, is pleasing to God and ultimately will be valuable to those we seek to serve.

I actually preached on the above passage myself this morning but I was thinking of the instruction to come to a deserted place as a remedy against burn out. And that it is. But I had not considered that it's the only way we will truly know ourselves so that we will not be manipulated by other people who seek to exploit us.

Instructing ourselves in joy

"Peasant Woman Sitting in the Grass"

Artist: Nicolae Grigorescu

Image from Wikimedia Commons

I love Mary Oliver's verse and have for a long time. Here's one of her poems I found today that is new to me:

Why I Wake Early

Every day
I see or hear
something
that more or less
kills me
with delight,
that leaves me
like a needle
in the haystack
of light.
It was what I was born for—
to look, to listen,
to lose myself
inside this soft world—
to instruct myself
over and over
in joy,
and acclamation.
Nor am I talking
about the exceptional,
the fearful, the dreadful,
the very extravagant—
but of the ordinary,
the common, the very drab,
the daily presentations.
Oh, good scholar,
I say to myself,
how can you help
but grow wise
with such teachings
as these—
the untrimmable light
of the world,
the ocean’s shine,
the prayers that are made
out of grass?

This poet truly understands the life of mindfulness and contemplation. "Prayers that are made out of grass." Aren't those wonderful words? I think I'll put a little vase of grass on the shrine in my oratory!

Motivation and encouragement

Starfish painting by Earnell

Occupational Training Center project

It's an old story and very probably you've heard it before. But, for some reason, I thought about it again the other day:

An old man was walking along the beach, when he came upon a part of the sand where thousands of starfish had washed ashore. A little further down the beach he saw a young woman, who was picking up the starfish one at a time and tossing them back into the ocean. "Oh you silly girl," he exclaimed. "You can't possibly save all of these starfish. There's too many." The woman smiled and said, "I know. But I can save this one, " and she tossed another into the ocean, "and this one", toss, "and this one..."

There are a number of versions of this. In one version, the creatures being saved are seahorses and the person tossing them back is a little boy. The old man says, "What you're doing doesn't matter," and the little boy says, "It matters to this one."

I like to remember this story when I'm feeling discouraged for any reason.

Please don't neglect your silence

"Silence interieur"

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Here's why it's so important for us to learn to meditate. Because without meditative skills we will not know how to access the silence of which Merton speaks:

The reality that is present to us and in us: call it being … or Silence. And the simple fact that by being attentive, by learning to listen (or recovering the natural capacity to listen) we can find ourself engulfed in such happiness that it cannot be explained: the happiness of being at one with everything in that hidden ground of Love for which there can be no explanations. May we all grow in grace and peace, and not neglect the silence that is printed in the center of our being. It will not fail us.

-- Thomas Merton